And the time I set for my voice project is over. And I didn’t really meet any of my goals, but things have changed in ways i never expected.
In all actuality my life is completely different than when this whole thing started. And like normal the project i made up to give my self a life took a back seat to the life that started speeding up around me. And while I wasn’t working on the specific projects I had outlined for my self, I did approach the challenges that popped up for me with the same type of mindfulness I had committed my self to in the first place.
So I’d call this summer a success. I got a lot of practice at listening, to those around me and to myself. And I’d say all that listening helped me to strengthen my voice because I’m entering the fall with many new opportunities. Last year at this time i couldn’t have imagined doing the things I’m working on today. And at the beginning of this summer I would have said no to the amazing invitations I have received because even just three months ago I didn’t believe that was who I was, and that might be the best indicator of the return of my prodigal voice. I am seeing my self for who i am and I’m spreading the word about what I know.

when I was maybe ten or eleven I started reading this book that my cousin had taken out of the library. It was a totally inthralling piece of sweet valley high crap and I loved it, but before i could finish my cousin took it back to the library. And I have gone thru life not knowing if the girl in the book ever hooked up with the cute guy she kept running into on her trip to hawaii.
For years I’ve kept an eye out for that book, I still take detours thru the teen section of the library from time to time hoping to see it on the shelf. I understand that I can look it up read it whenever I like, but that would destroy the relationship I have had with this book. As much as I hated not knowing the ending, that not knowing also sparked a sense of possibility in me that is quite exciting.
Anything can can happen… even finding that book laying on a table at my next visit to the library!

that’s how you get bladder infections!

or maybe they are a part of this team

I spent the day doing what ever i wanted and not feeling guilty about any of it.

I’d had this idea that over my eleven days I would tackle all the tasks on my to do list. I have 35 things to do over the next 16 days and I thought about banging them all out early so I could have a little breathing room.

Taking a little breather today felt perfect though and I think it will help me hit a good, maintainable stride, rather than sprinting like hell out of the blocks and being sidelined with a cramp a quarter of the way thru the race.

I know these early mornings will be great memories for all of you!

but I’m changing the name and scope of this goal.

Last night I took a yoga class and our teacher had us think of someone we would like to dedicate the benefits of our practice to. I immediately thought of my self. I’m having a hard time right now… in a nut shell everything is annoying me and I hate everybody.

I picked exercising as a goal because i know that when i exercise regularly I feel good, but now I see that exercising isn’t the only way in which I need to take care of myself.

so look out August 19th thru 29th because you are MINE!

I guess the goal here is to figure out and do the things that really really make me feel good.

i’ve wanted to go to this thing since it was first held 4 years ago, but every year i had to go to some sort of shower instead.
The craft show was the exact opposite of a baby or wedding shower in that i really enjoyed it!
The best part is that i didn’t feel this longing to create something the way i normally do when perusing the artsy wears of others, and i think its because i have a very healthy creative outlet at this time. Being happy with my own self expression has also opened my apparition of the work of others. I’ve never been into bringing art into the home until this past year. Today I got this cute print. And gun earrings. Life is so FUN!!!

that’s how much i love these entries!